THE NORTH FACE 100KM 2013

Ang pinaka una kong trail run at ang pinaka malayong tinakbo ko sa tanang buhay ko! 

Nag bigay ng promo ang Microtel Baguio na for the first 20 na mag pa book ay free race kit sa kahit anong distance. Almost 3000 lang per night sa hotel so malaking tipid na at para mas malaki ang matipid nag 50Km ako na ang registration fee ay 3500 at dahil sa pagtitipid malaking hirap ang kapalit, hahah!

Pinaghandaan ko naman ang takbo ko, bumili ako ng mga gagamitin ko sa trail pero dahil first time di ko alam kung anu ang importante. Kulang pa pala ang dala ko, dahil wala akong trekking pole na napaka laking tulong sa isang trail runner, ang GLOVES ang naging kakampi ko sa pag kapit sa mga halaman at bato sa pag akyat at pag baba. LEASON LEARNED! mas maganda ang de battery na ilaw kaysa sa mga chinacharge dahil ang battery napapalitan sa bundok walang saksakan! hahah.

Kami na ang huling umalis sa starting line dahil LATE kami! hahah, nagpa check pa kami ng gamit sa organizers para payagan mag proceed sa race, Thank God at naka abot pa kami sa ibang mga nauna na.

Sobrang ganda ng view sa daan na hindi namin maiwasan na mag picture (first time eh) at un din ang nagbigay ng excitement samin to move forward para makita pa ang iba pang kabundukan na aakyatin. Kahit na nasa Baguio kami ay di padin kami naka iwas sa araw! Mainit parang Manila at manipis ang hangin na nakakadagdag sa hirap. Twice din akong nadulas, nalaglag, nahulog ang dalawang paa sa ilog at nalubog sa putik na nagpa dulas ng aking sapatos.

Narating ko ang 21Km around 12pm sakto nakita ko ang dalawa sa 4 kong kasama na umakyat (Jericho Jusay and Marvin Maquirang, left to right) at may naghihintay na tanghalian mula sa nagmagandang loob at nagpakain sa mga runners. Nakapagpa stretch nadin ako sa Aid Station. Mula dito 4Km nalang at Uurn na!

Ito na ang pinaka mahabang 4Km na tinakbo ko! mula simula ang sabi ng nakaka salubong ko eh "malapit na" "tyaga lang" pero grabe UP-HELL talga! at puro bato sa daan samahan pa ng mainit na araw! last 100meters na lang na pag sa road eh seconds lang tinatakbo pero dito parang kinuha namin ng 30 minutes para lang makakuha ng orange na goma! at makita ang tower ng ABS CBN!

3pm na ko nag simulang bumaba at 29km nadin ang natakbo ko, at start 5 kami na sabay sabay bumaba pero pinili ko na mauna dahil ayaw ko abutan ng dilim sa bundok, halos 2 oras din ako na nag iisa at walang ginawa kundi tumakbo lumakad uminom at magdasal. Sawakas nakakita ako ng 3 pang runners (Jay, Kat, Soleil) at sabay sabay namin naabot ang 2nd to the last aid station ng may araw pa. Mula sa Aid Station dumaan pa ko sa mga kbahayan na may maliliit na eskenita at iba ibang sukat ng baitang ng hagdanan at 2km pa to the last station.

Pagod, nanginginig na binti, baho ng katawan at maalat na pawis na tumutulo sa mata ang tiniis ko. Last 2 hrs para sa cut off na 10pm ng makarating ako sa 44km Aid station at sabi na kailngan mag sindi ng ilaw pag nasa kalsada na. narating ko ang run way ng Loakan Airport at nakakaiyak man pero kailngan ko ng tumigil kahit kayang kaya ko pa dahil wala na akong ilaw at ang blinker ko ay nalaglag na sa bundok. May ksama ko na dalawa pang runner na parehong injured, paa at tuhod. Isinakay kami ng mga pulis na may dalang F150 pick up, dahil malakas pa ko kinaya ko pang akyatin at sumakay sa likod, napaka lamig na ng hangin, nakatingin nalang ako sa malayo para mawala ang panghihinayang. Ibinaba ako sa Camp John Hay na finish line din at nakita ko ang mga nakasama ko sa trail na mga nakatapos. SAYANG! ang paulit ulit na tumatakbo sa isip ko, pinilit ngumiti sa harap ng camera.

Pero napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko! at hindi ako papayag na di ko uulitn to nxt year at talgang paghahandaan ko na ng todo todo, napaka saya ng experience. ito ang masasabi kong mahirap na masarap, masakit na pinipilit at nakakapagod na masaya.

At ang pinka masarap at masayang pinag kaiba ng ROAD sa TRAIL ay sa road wala ka masyado nakikilala pero sa trail ang dami! at nag tutulungan kau pareho!

SALUDO ako sa lahat ng nakilahok sa TNF100 2013, Finisher man o DNF ang respeto ko ay nasa inyo!

this one is for you

1. alam ko pinadala ni Lord para ako ay magising sa katotohanan, at lumakad sa tamang daan

2. pasensya kung minsan ay sumusobra ako sa biro at hindi ko na papansin na ikaw ay nasasaktan, ako ay masaya na ikaw ay aking naging kaibigan

3. maraming bagay man tayo na di mapagkasunduan, alam ko na iyon ay trabaho lamang, pagkatapos ng lahat tayo mananatiling matalik na magkaibigan

4. pinasasaya mo ang araw ko, sa mga hirit mo na kahit mabigat ang loob ko ay napapagaan mo,

5. binago mo ang pananaw ko sa mga katulad nyo, dahil dati pag may nagsabi saakin na gusto nila ako, talagang lumalayo ako, pero sayo pinakita mo sakin na harmless ka, hahah

6. salamat sa mga panahon na ikaw ay sumasama sa amin at nagdadagdag ng saya, salamat dahil kahit ngayong taon ka palang namin naksama ay naging bukas ka na sa amin

7. matagal na tayong magkakilala pero ngayong taon lang tayo talagang nagkasama at nagkadaupang palad, salamat sa pagsama saakin sa panahong alam mo na hindi ako ok

8. salamat sa inyo na natuto akong maging responsable kahit di pa ganon katodo, salamat kasi dahil sa inyo nakilala ko pa ang sarili ko at nakita kung ano pa ang mga kaya kong gawin na ngayon ko lang nagawa

9. salamat sa inyo, kayo ang pangalawa kong pamilya sa eskwelahan kahit na hindi nyo ako myembro alam ko na magkakapatid tayo

10. salamat dahil hinayaan mo akong mahalin ka, pero ako nadin ang nag pasya na huminto at dumistansya, sana ay maging masaya ka sa lahat ng mga desisyon na gagawin mo sa iyong buhay, nawa ay guminhawa na ang iyong pakiramdam, 

11. nagsimula tayo magkatrabaho ng masaya at tila walang problema, ngunit bago matapos ang taon nakita ko ang iyong tunay na kulay, sayang ang nabigo ako sa pag kakakilala ko sayo

12. salamt at ikaw ang naging susi sa aking tagumpay, pero hanggang doon nalang iyon, iba kadin pala

13. salamat sa iyong kakulitan at mapala ngiting labi, pasensya ka na kung ikaw ang madalas kong batuhin ng aking pang aasar

14. ngayon ay marami ka ng natututunan sa akin, hahah, sana ay mahawaan nga kita ng aking pagiging positibo,

15. 9 na taon na tayong magkasama at malapit ng mag 10, salamat at hangang ngayon ay buo parin ang ating samahan at kulitan, salamat dahil hindi tayo nagkkalimutan, masya ako at nandyan ka,

16. tulad ni 15 masayang masaya ako at ikaw ay nagbalik, hahah, di ka man namin madalas makasam, nagpapasalamat ako at ngayon bago matapos ang taon ay bumalik ang ating samahan, di ko alam kung saan pa tutungo ito o aangat ang lebel ng ating pagkakaibigan, hahah

17. matgal na kitang hinihintay, matagal na akong sayo ay sumusubaybay, ngayon ang landas natin ay muli na namang nagtagpo, sa sandaling pinagsamahan nating nuong tayo ay bata pa, un ang aking pinanghawakan, masaya ako dahil alam ko na sa panibagong taon na parating, sanay ikaw ay aking makapiling

Another year will be closed

habang akoy nakatingin sa malawak na kalupaan at palayan at ang hangin ay umiihip ng sobrang lamig aking napagtanto na ang taon ay lilipas nanaman, aking napag isip isip at akoy tumingin sa nakaraan at isang napakalaking tanong ang umukit sa aking utak, ano nga ba ang nagawa ko sa buong isang taon na nagdaan, ano ba ang mga pagsubok na aking nalagpasan at anong mga bagay ang nagturo sa akin na lumaban sa buhay. Ito ang mga tanong na ang sagot ko ay tanong din, ano nga ba? sa aking mag mumuni muni at pagninilay nilay, aking napag tanto na sa taong nakalipas madami akong nakasalamuha, mga taong ngayong taon ko lang nakilala at ang iba ay matagal ko ng kakilala pero ngayong taon lang nagkaroon ng partisipasyon sa aking pagkatao. Ngayon ko taon ay lalo ko pang nakilala ang aking sarili dahil narin sa mga tao na malalapit sa puso ko, tunay nga na ang taon na nagdaan ay tila isang gulong na paikot ikot, may panahon na masaya at may mga oras na kabaligtaran. Natuto ako na lumaban, dati ako ay tahimik lang at nagwawalang kibo kahit na ang nakikita ko ay di na kanais nais, lalo akong natutong magpahalaga sa ibang tao, lalo na sa mga taong malalpit sa aking puso at mga taong umaasa sa mga bagay na kaya kong gawin. Ngayong taon ay nawala ang takot ko sa komprontasyon, at natuklasan ko na ang isang problema ay malulutas sa mahinahong pag uusap. Sa taon na ito lubos lubos din ang natangap kong mga biyaya, umaapaw at talagang hindi ko sukat akalain na maipag kakaloob ito sa akin.

Saan nga ba hahantong ang storyang ito kundi sa pasasalamat, ako ay nag papasalamat sa mga taong nagbigay ng ngiti at sumama sa akin sa pag lakad sa taong nagdaan, sa mga taong nag bigay saakin ng inspirasyon at nagturo sa akin ng mga bagay na hindi ko matututunan sa apat na sulok ng silid aralan, at higit akong nagpapasalamat sa mga taong sumalungat sa akin, sa mga taong nagbigay sa akin ng galit at sama ng loob, salamat at dahil sa inyo ay lalo akong lumakas at tumapang. Nagpapasalamat din ako sa aking pamilya na hindi ako pinabayaan at iniwan, salamat sa suporta na ipinagkaloob nyo sa akin, sa lahat ng desisyon na aking ginawa akoy inyong tinulungan, at higit sa lahat akoy nag papasalamat sa ating may kapal na nag bukas saakin hindi lang ng bintana kundi pinto ng kalangitan, salamat sa umaapaw na biyaya, kahit na ako ay nagkakasala at maraming pagkukulang ay hindi mo parin ako binitawan.

ako ay humihimgi ng kapatawaran sa mga taong aking nasaktan, nakagalit, naka alitan at hindi nakaunawaan, ako ay tao lang, mahina, maramdamin, at maraming kakulangan, 

In my 21 years of existence

Time really run so fast that I cant believe that I"m now on the stage where I can say that from a child I am now a man. Gaining a year older is not that easy because trials and challenges are more difficult than before and a more mature responses are needed.

I'm consolidating my life now, if what failures and achievements I've got in the past 21 years. This things are primarily the main reason why I am here in this situation and status in life. Jutting it down and comparing the two proves me one thing, I failed but I didn't stayed lying on the ground. Lots of challenges I've been, and by the grace of God I surpassed it all. and because of all my failures I learned to stand up and continue the battle of life.

Right now I'am challenging my self to be a goal setter, I should plan my life now, especially that I'll be leaving college soon and still don't know what to do and where to go. This is the time that I should have an answer if I will be asked if what will I be 5 years from now. Of course I'm still not good in planning but I should try, and after that I'll submit that to God because even I'm not a minor anymore I'm still God's precious child, and I'll let Him still direct me to what he wants me to be.

I like to thank my friends, the good ones but most of all the bad, because they help me build my own personality, because of them I learned how to fight in this world. I have many friends and lots of them are treasures for me. I don't have to enumerate each and every one because deep down inside me they all played a very special part.

My brother and sisters who are always there for me, they are my best friends, we seldom see each other even we are living under the same roof because of different schedules but still the connections and the bonds are there, I thank them for understanding me when I'm stressed and pissed off, that they support me in all the things that I do.

My parents who never leave me and let me always feel that they are just right behind me. I know most of the time I'm not good as a child, but they never change, there some arguments cost by me but still at the end of the day everything goes back to its normal stage. I am very thankful to have them as my parents because they were very supportive in all my decisions and they send me to places where I wanted to be. I like to thank them for the patience and sacrifice for 21 years, I promise that when I'm on their foot steps I'll do the same on my children.

Lastly I like to thank God for the another year added into my life. Thank you for showing me how beautiful life is, I also want to thank you for the trials and challenges, I know that when I'm on that situation you lifted me up and carry me. Thank you for planning a better life for me, for giving me the love and the favor that I needed, thank you Lord for not bringing me down and for not leaving me in my darkest day. I'm sorry for all my shortcomings and the pain I've cost you. I ask that please help me to change from glory to glory.

Now that I'm 21, I promise to be more responsible, and be more careful in my actions, decisions, and lots more. right now all I can say is THANK YOU :)))

The Christmas shoes

It was almost Christmas time, there I stood in another line
Tryin' to buy that last gift or two, not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing 'round like little boys do
And in his hands he held a pair of shoes
 
His clothes were worn and old, he was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say
 
Chorus:
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
 
He counted pennies for what seemed like years
Then the cashier said, "Son, there's not enough here"
He searched his pockets frantically
Then he turned and he looked at me
He said Mama made Christmas good at our house
Though most years she just did without
Tell me Sir, what am I going to do,
Somehow I've got to buy her these Christmas shoes
 
So I laid the money down, I just had to help him out 
I'll never forget the look on his face when he said
Mama's gonna look so great
 
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
 
Bridge:
I knew I'd caught a glimpse of heaven's love
As he thanked me and ran out
I knew that God had sent that little boy
To remind me just what Christmas is all about


When a friend introduced me this song, the time I'm looking for Christmas presentation in our church, i was touched and moved by the meaning of the song, i was on tears when I started to make a story, a human video with this song. In this century the real meaning of Christmas is not that visible like before, so i posted this song and video to remind us what Christmas is all about.

Hunyango

Ang hunyango o hinyango (Ingles: chameleon) ay isa sa mga higit na kilalang mga uri ng maliliit na mga butiking kabilang sa pamilyang Chamaeleonidae (mga iskwamata) na may kakayahang magbago ng kulay. -wikipedia

Base sa wikipedia ang mga hunyango ay isang uri ng butiki na kayang mag bago ng KULAY. Kung saan sila madikit, nagbabago ang kanilang kulay katulad ng kaluy na kanilang nadikitan. Ngunit, subalit, datapwat, mayroon bang taong butiki? kasi madami ang TAONG HUNYANGO mga tao na kung saan madikit andun ang kanilang malasakit at simpatiya.

Hindi natin mapipili ang mga taong bigla bigla nalang pumapasok sa ating buhay, may napadaan lang, yung iba ay kaibigan ng kabigan (common friend),  kasama sa eskwelahan o trabaho, at mga taong nakapaligid sayo.

Nitong mga nakaraang araw lamang aking napag tanto ang mga bagay bagay, mga bagay na marahil ay hindi ko napansin noong una palang. May mga tao akong nakilala na sa simula ay maayos naman ang pakikitungo, masaya pa sila kasama, pero pag lipas ng isang buwan ay unti unting nag babago ang kanilang mga galaw, marahil dahil tapos na ang aming mga ginagawa at hindi na ganoon kailangan ang isat isa, dati ay sila pa ang gumagawa ng paraan para mangamusta pero ngaun ay simpleng bati nlang na minsan ay wala pa. Nag kakaroon pa ng mga desisyon na hindi nya naman saklaw pero sya padin ang nangibabaw. Katanyagan ba ang gusto nya? OO! PWEDE! hindi ko lang alam kung ano ang gusto nyang patunayan. Nag iba na ang tingin ko sa kanya, akala ko dati sya ay matapang at kakampi ng lahat, ngunit may pagkakataon na nakita ko siya sa isang saradong pagpupulong kasama ng iba pang mga taong hunyango. Nang aking mapagtanto kung ano ang tinatakbo ng kanilang balitaktakan, aking napag isip isip na tama ang aking hinala. Pinag uusapan nila ang mga taong wala sa kanilang pulong at nag lalabas ng mga galit na kanilang nararamdaman. Para sa akin ay tama lamang na mag labas ka ng iyong sama ng loob pero hindi dapat sa mga taong wala namang kinalaman doon dahil hindi naman sila makakatulong sa sitwasyon at makadadagdag. Ang buong akala ko ay matapang siya sa puntong kaya nyang komprontahin ang taong kanyang kinasasamaan ng loob. Pero hindi, maling mali ako, kung akin silang pag mamasadan na nag tatrabaho pareho makikita mo na mukang ayos naman sila at walang alitan, may ngiti sa kanilang mga labi ngunit minsan ay mararamdaman mong hindi bukal sa kalooban. Ginawa ko ang blog na ito para mailabas ko ang aking saloobin, hindi ko alam marahil kung isa ba ako o sa aking mga kaibigan ang kanilang pinag uusapan kung kami ay wala sa kanilang harapan. Hindi ko sya kayang kausapin dahil hindi siya ganon kadaling kausapin lalo na at tungkol sa mga ganitong bagay, kaya i blinog ko nalang,. Alam ko na halos lahat naman tayo ay mga kakilala na ganito, mga TAONG HUNYANGO na kapag sayo nakadikit ay ikaw ang kakulay ngunit pag lumukso na sa iba, wala ka na, lagot ka na!

Up up in the air

One point in our life I am very sure that we feel like hanging in the air, like a balloon that goes up in the sky without any direction.

Its been almost a year from now, 1 day to go to be exact when a boy met a girl. It was a cold evening that night since the spirit of Christmas was present, a group of teens were about to attend a convention in a high place somewhere in North Luzon. Past 11 when the bus departed the station to go a 6 hour drive, the group started to take pictures, opened their salty chips, sang different songs, they were all excited for convention. The boy sits beside his close friend because he actually don't know personally the rest of the guys. The girl that time was sited at his back, beside her was her closest classmate. That was the first time when the boy saw the girl, they were schoolmates in college, the boy was 2 years older so maybe that was one of the reasons why he didn't notice the existence of the girl in school. The convention last for four days, as days went by, the group started to have a bond, a really really great bond, you can see them eat together, laugh together, sing together and ofcourse had pictures together. Every night was a bang! because every night has a new game to play, topic to talk to and trips to do. One night the boy started to notice the girl, it was after they went to a public market where they bought stuffs and sweets that they gave to their love ones. After they bought all the things they needed they rode a cab and went back to their baracks, wew! its dinner time, time to get the food stub and fall in line but the girl feels aweful that time, she had a severe head ache that she can't went to the dinning hall and ate, so the boy get the stub of the girl and the two other girls whose with her to give her comfort. That was the time when the boy felt something for the girl, a feeling that he can't expalin to himself. He was affected of that incident and he started to care for the girl, by that time the boy gets closer and closer to the girl. It was sunday afternoon when they took a ride going back to manila and they arived past 9 in the evening. The boy decided to went down on the bus at the exit of the express way, then he noticed that the girl will also do the same. Happily even exhausted from the trip, the two took a ride home.

From then they started communicating, texting, seeing at the college building, and the best thing was going home together. The boy fell for the girl so deeply that he felt that the girl noticed it, and the group started to tease them. It was their routine for more than two months, until the boy who was sitted beside her in the bus txted the boy and told him that he loves the girl and the girl felt the sameway. The boy was shocked that time but he chose to give them the blessing that they need. The girl and the boy stopped their communication, they didn't see each other for long, even sms was absent, nothing at all, untill the day that the two fell apart because of some reasons, the boy and the girl started to see each other again, txting, going home together, same routine as before. The love of the boy for the girl still remained after of long months without any communication. Sweet txt, sweet smile, leaning on shoulder when sleeping, throwing good conversation. But then the boy was afraid to tell the girl that he really really loves her, he was contented on what they have because he was afraid that because of that love the friendship will be destroyed. As time goes by many things happened, the girl became popular and many suitors came, even of of the closest friend of the boy. So the boy gathered all the courage he have and told the girl about his feeling infront of a chapel, the boy told her that he was not expecying for an answer and he was not expecting anything in return, but a promise that the friendship will still be there. They had a great night that they that the girl appreciated the efforts of the boy. Then one day, the thing that the boy doesn't want to happen came. The girl was cold to the boy and he was really upset beacuse of the scenario, no reply to sms even the boy knew that the girl was replying to her other sms. That was a hard thing for the boy and then he found out base on his instict that the girl is now falling for someone, he saw some comments on their social network and feel that they were happy with each other, he also found out that the two was going out. Silently the boy was crying inside because he was affected on whats happening, lots of questions appeared on his mind, whats the sweet stuff for? I thought were ok, I thougt were good, I thought were happy with each other. The boy noticed that it was just all his assumptions, he felt that he was floating in the air, he was left hanging with no explanation, until now he is feeling the same way, but all he can do is to force himself to be happy and move on :(((