In my 21 years of existence

Time really run so fast that I cant believe that I"m now on the stage where I can say that from a child I am now a man. Gaining a year older is not that easy because trials and challenges are more difficult than before and a more mature responses are needed.

I'm consolidating my life now, if what failures and achievements I've got in the past 21 years. This things are primarily the main reason why I am here in this situation and status in life. Jutting it down and comparing the two proves me one thing, I failed but I didn't stayed lying on the ground. Lots of challenges I've been, and by the grace of God I surpassed it all. and because of all my failures I learned to stand up and continue the battle of life.

Right now I'am challenging my self to be a goal setter, I should plan my life now, especially that I'll be leaving college soon and still don't know what to do and where to go. This is the time that I should have an answer if I will be asked if what will I be 5 years from now. Of course I'm still not good in planning but I should try, and after that I'll submit that to God because even I'm not a minor anymore I'm still God's precious child, and I'll let Him still direct me to what he wants me to be.

I like to thank my friends, the good ones but most of all the bad, because they help me build my own personality, because of them I learned how to fight in this world. I have many friends and lots of them are treasures for me. I don't have to enumerate each and every one because deep down inside me they all played a very special part.

My brother and sisters who are always there for me, they are my best friends, we seldom see each other even we are living under the same roof because of different schedules but still the connections and the bonds are there, I thank them for understanding me when I'm stressed and pissed off, that they support me in all the things that I do.

My parents who never leave me and let me always feel that they are just right behind me. I know most of the time I'm not good as a child, but they never change, there some arguments cost by me but still at the end of the day everything goes back to its normal stage. I am very thankful to have them as my parents because they were very supportive in all my decisions and they send me to places where I wanted to be. I like to thank them for the patience and sacrifice for 21 years, I promise that when I'm on their foot steps I'll do the same on my children.

Lastly I like to thank God for the another year added into my life. Thank you for showing me how beautiful life is, I also want to thank you for the trials and challenges, I know that when I'm on that situation you lifted me up and carry me. Thank you for planning a better life for me, for giving me the love and the favor that I needed, thank you Lord for not bringing me down and for not leaving me in my darkest day. I'm sorry for all my shortcomings and the pain I've cost you. I ask that please help me to change from glory to glory.

Now that I'm 21, I promise to be more responsible, and be more careful in my actions, decisions, and lots more. right now all I can say is THANK YOU :)))

The Christmas shoes

It was almost Christmas time, there I stood in another line
Tryin' to buy that last gift or two, not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing 'round like little boys do
And in his hands he held a pair of shoes
 
His clothes were worn and old, he was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say
 
Chorus:
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
 
He counted pennies for what seemed like years
Then the cashier said, "Son, there's not enough here"
He searched his pockets frantically
Then he turned and he looked at me
He said Mama made Christmas good at our house
Though most years she just did without
Tell me Sir, what am I going to do,
Somehow I've got to buy her these Christmas shoes
 
So I laid the money down, I just had to help him out 
I'll never forget the look on his face when he said
Mama's gonna look so great
 
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
 
Bridge:
I knew I'd caught a glimpse of heaven's love
As he thanked me and ran out
I knew that God had sent that little boy
To remind me just what Christmas is all about


When a friend introduced me this song, the time I'm looking for Christmas presentation in our church, i was touched and moved by the meaning of the song, i was on tears when I started to make a story, a human video with this song. In this century the real meaning of Christmas is not that visible like before, so i posted this song and video to remind us what Christmas is all about.

Hunyango

Ang hunyango o hinyango (Ingles: chameleon) ay isa sa mga higit na kilalang mga uri ng maliliit na mga butiking kabilang sa pamilyang Chamaeleonidae (mga iskwamata) na may kakayahang magbago ng kulay. -wikipedia

Base sa wikipedia ang mga hunyango ay isang uri ng butiki na kayang mag bago ng KULAY. Kung saan sila madikit, nagbabago ang kanilang kulay katulad ng kaluy na kanilang nadikitan. Ngunit, subalit, datapwat, mayroon bang taong butiki? kasi madami ang TAONG HUNYANGO mga tao na kung saan madikit andun ang kanilang malasakit at simpatiya.

Hindi natin mapipili ang mga taong bigla bigla nalang pumapasok sa ating buhay, may napadaan lang, yung iba ay kaibigan ng kabigan (common friend),  kasama sa eskwelahan o trabaho, at mga taong nakapaligid sayo.

Nitong mga nakaraang araw lamang aking napag tanto ang mga bagay bagay, mga bagay na marahil ay hindi ko napansin noong una palang. May mga tao akong nakilala na sa simula ay maayos naman ang pakikitungo, masaya pa sila kasama, pero pag lipas ng isang buwan ay unti unting nag babago ang kanilang mga galaw, marahil dahil tapos na ang aming mga ginagawa at hindi na ganoon kailangan ang isat isa, dati ay sila pa ang gumagawa ng paraan para mangamusta pero ngaun ay simpleng bati nlang na minsan ay wala pa. Nag kakaroon pa ng mga desisyon na hindi nya naman saklaw pero sya padin ang nangibabaw. Katanyagan ba ang gusto nya? OO! PWEDE! hindi ko lang alam kung ano ang gusto nyang patunayan. Nag iba na ang tingin ko sa kanya, akala ko dati sya ay matapang at kakampi ng lahat, ngunit may pagkakataon na nakita ko siya sa isang saradong pagpupulong kasama ng iba pang mga taong hunyango. Nang aking mapagtanto kung ano ang tinatakbo ng kanilang balitaktakan, aking napag isip isip na tama ang aking hinala. Pinag uusapan nila ang mga taong wala sa kanilang pulong at nag lalabas ng mga galit na kanilang nararamdaman. Para sa akin ay tama lamang na mag labas ka ng iyong sama ng loob pero hindi dapat sa mga taong wala namang kinalaman doon dahil hindi naman sila makakatulong sa sitwasyon at makadadagdag. Ang buong akala ko ay matapang siya sa puntong kaya nyang komprontahin ang taong kanyang kinasasamaan ng loob. Pero hindi, maling mali ako, kung akin silang pag mamasadan na nag tatrabaho pareho makikita mo na mukang ayos naman sila at walang alitan, may ngiti sa kanilang mga labi ngunit minsan ay mararamdaman mong hindi bukal sa kalooban. Ginawa ko ang blog na ito para mailabas ko ang aking saloobin, hindi ko alam marahil kung isa ba ako o sa aking mga kaibigan ang kanilang pinag uusapan kung kami ay wala sa kanilang harapan. Hindi ko sya kayang kausapin dahil hindi siya ganon kadaling kausapin lalo na at tungkol sa mga ganitong bagay, kaya i blinog ko nalang,. Alam ko na halos lahat naman tayo ay mga kakilala na ganito, mga TAONG HUNYANGO na kapag sayo nakadikit ay ikaw ang kakulay ngunit pag lumukso na sa iba, wala ka na, lagot ka na!

Up up in the air

One point in our life I am very sure that we feel like hanging in the air, like a balloon that goes up in the sky without any direction.

Its been almost a year from now, 1 day to go to be exact when a boy met a girl. It was a cold evening that night since the spirit of Christmas was present, a group of teens were about to attend a convention in a high place somewhere in North Luzon. Past 11 when the bus departed the station to go a 6 hour drive, the group started to take pictures, opened their salty chips, sang different songs, they were all excited for convention. The boy sits beside his close friend because he actually don't know personally the rest of the guys. The girl that time was sited at his back, beside her was her closest classmate. That was the first time when the boy saw the girl, they were schoolmates in college, the boy was 2 years older so maybe that was one of the reasons why he didn't notice the existence of the girl in school. The convention last for four days, as days went by, the group started to have a bond, a really really great bond, you can see them eat together, laugh together, sing together and ofcourse had pictures together. Every night was a bang! because every night has a new game to play, topic to talk to and trips to do. One night the boy started to notice the girl, it was after they went to a public market where they bought stuffs and sweets that they gave to their love ones. After they bought all the things they needed they rode a cab and went back to their baracks, wew! its dinner time, time to get the food stub and fall in line but the girl feels aweful that time, she had a severe head ache that she can't went to the dinning hall and ate, so the boy get the stub of the girl and the two other girls whose with her to give her comfort. That was the time when the boy felt something for the girl, a feeling that he can't expalin to himself. He was affected of that incident and he started to care for the girl, by that time the boy gets closer and closer to the girl. It was sunday afternoon when they took a ride going back to manila and they arived past 9 in the evening. The boy decided to went down on the bus at the exit of the express way, then he noticed that the girl will also do the same. Happily even exhausted from the trip, the two took a ride home.

From then they started communicating, texting, seeing at the college building, and the best thing was going home together. The boy fell for the girl so deeply that he felt that the girl noticed it, and the group started to tease them. It was their routine for more than two months, until the boy who was sitted beside her in the bus txted the boy and told him that he loves the girl and the girl felt the sameway. The boy was shocked that time but he chose to give them the blessing that they need. The girl and the boy stopped their communication, they didn't see each other for long, even sms was absent, nothing at all, untill the day that the two fell apart because of some reasons, the boy and the girl started to see each other again, txting, going home together, same routine as before. The love of the boy for the girl still remained after of long months without any communication. Sweet txt, sweet smile, leaning on shoulder when sleeping, throwing good conversation. But then the boy was afraid to tell the girl that he really really loves her, he was contented on what they have because he was afraid that because of that love the friendship will be destroyed. As time goes by many things happened, the girl became popular and many suitors came, even of of the closest friend of the boy. So the boy gathered all the courage he have and told the girl about his feeling infront of a chapel, the boy told her that he was not expecying for an answer and he was not expecting anything in return, but a promise that the friendship will still be there. They had a great night that they that the girl appreciated the efforts of the boy. Then one day, the thing that the boy doesn't want to happen came. The girl was cold to the boy and he was really upset beacuse of the scenario, no reply to sms even the boy knew that the girl was replying to her other sms. That was a hard thing for the boy and then he found out base on his instict that the girl is now falling for someone, he saw some comments on their social network and feel that they were happy with each other, he also found out that the two was going out. Silently the boy was crying inside because he was affected on whats happening, lots of questions appeared on his mind, whats the sweet stuff for? I thought were ok, I thougt were good, I thought were happy with each other. The boy noticed that it was just all his assumptions, he felt that he was floating in the air, he was left hanging with no explanation, until now he is feeling the same way, but all he can do is to force himself to be happy and move on :(((